The inability of a child to thrive in a Constitutionally protected God based perpetual threat and rape culture is not a fault of the child; however it does become their odious responsibility upon reaching adulthood. The Christian religion at it's core is a toxic mechanism whereby intergenerational trauma has been kept alive, active and deeply embedded in each new generation over the past 2,000+ years.
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Brian Bull - I found the strength to tell my wife, the soul destroying secret that was ruining my life
Sunday, 29 August 2021 9:15:44 PM
When dark clouds gather in your mind and a feeling of safety is too hard to find
The flashbacks come when least expected, you're vulnerable and unprotected
Your childhood lost, innocence defiled, your trust and love now reviled
The tears, the fears, the pain, the shame, questions asked was I to blame
What did he do, what went wrong, I was just a child, he was so strong
Who can I tell, who would listen, why was I put into this position
Was this a punishment, had I been bad, I feel so empty alone and sad
Why did this happen and why to me, seems everyone stares what do they see
My minds a jumble can't concentrate, the love I gave now turns to hate
Internal emptiness turns icy cold, happiness gone, there's just slime and mould
Surely someone can see I'm not the same, my fear level rises just hearing his name
Can't stay in this house with him alone, it's more of a dungeon than a loving home
It's where it happened, it could happen again, where is God this life's insane
The days still pass, the months, the years, still I can't control the tears
They always come when I'm alone, it seems a weakness I can't condone
I'm now a man but he still owns the power, the sight of him still makes me cower
All ties with him I finally sever, more contact with him I can now say NEVER
From my parents a question out of the blue, ''was it a sexual thing between my brother and you
I thought it was but we are not to blame, he'd done something before to the families shame
Surely you don't blame us for what he did'', my mind was whirling, my anger I hid
''Had you said we'd have had him in Court but now he's dead,it would be for nought''.
They finally leave and I just don't understand, why leave it till now, was this planned
No,they hadn't said Brian are you alright, just dropped the bombshell then off in the night
All the unwanted emotions came back in a flood, again I suppressed them as best I could.
At age 64 my anger finally flared, I hit out at everything, Little was spared
I had lost control I could no longer cope, reliving it again, I was losing all hope
My family stood by me though they'd never been told, why at times I could be so cold
I found the strength to tell my wife, the soul destroying secret that was ruining my life
I even explained how, at 11 I had tried to end all the pain, by committing suicide
In the medicine cabinet a small dark jar, it was marked as poison, would I go this far
Got a teaspoon, filled it, with this dark brown stuff, just swallow it down, just be tough
Walked off to school no feeling of dread, just thinking at anytime I would fall down dead
There was no regret of doing myself harm but strangely there was, odd feelings of calm
With my last breath all the pain would be gone and that would be better than struggling on
By lunch time the poison was doing nothing to me, the relief I sought wasn't going to be
I never tried again, I'm not sure why, maybe the child within said at least let's try
To fight the emotions, to block my mind, against all of the flashbacks of any kind
Although this worked for many years, there were still those times I shed many tears
Then counselling sessions helped me to see, there was a way for me to be free
The journey took time but I reached my goal, now I feel alive, happy and whole
The fight is over and I know I've won, the cold deep within has been warmed by the sun
The tears, the fears, the shame that has been, I know the sea has washed me clean.
Any victims out there that may read this verse, please start your journey, please break the curse
Accept the help that's offered, that's what counsellors are for, join us who are saying
"This is a matter for the church and I respect the internal judgements of the church. I don't stand outside the church and provide them with public lectures in terms of how they should behave. I've noted carefully what his Holiness has said in the United States. Obviously that was a source of great comfort and healing in the United States. I'm like all Australians very much looking forward to what the Pope has to say here in Australia as well, as I am to my own conversation with the Pope later this morning."
Kevin Rudd, Prime Minister of Australia, 17 July 2008. more
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